Eek, now it appears that I haven’t been blogging at all for the past… 1-2 months. Can’t bring myself to tranpose emotions to text. Christmas has come and gone. I would use the word ‘solemn’ to best describe how things really are. Yu Vern’s not around. So every single bit of happiness is tainted by thoughts of him. How do you get by not feeling guilty being happy without him? Well ofcourse now, he’s having a much better time than all of us combined, but still… it’s never going to be the same. There can be no real happiness now. At least not until you remember what it’s like to not have Christmas without him.

What did we do for Christmas Eve? Things at home are certainly moving. Everyone’s got together for a massive spring cleaning. We getting rid of ALOT of junk we’ve gathered over the years as a family. Some blood curdling jems of the past (wink to Sue-Ann!). Clearing up parts of my trustee ‘library’ cabinet made me realize how many harddisk drives I’ve gone through since I first started buying computers. How do I get rid of these? Aiya, it’s so mafan. How do I safely destroy harddisks apart from using a hammer or digging a hole in the ground??

I think I must’ve pulled a muscle/spinal disk sometime when lifting heavy junk. Now I’m aching all over my lower back. Short sharp spasm when I think a spinal bone presses on some nerves. The pain is moving to the front and I keep thinking it’s a tummy ache. Hrm… will need to see a doctor then.

Christmas was spent at Kajang with good ol’ familiar faces. Like almost every year, we get together over food and strong bonds of friendship and laughter. It’s nice to see things like this continue on. It’s like a growing snapshot in time, sooner or later everyone’s gonna be married. Some will be making kids faster than I can say ‘wait’. But all is good in that sense.

Christmas is now gone. Faded and all our hearts are headed and poised for the new year. Gauging oneself and measuring past mistakes, some drastic changes are in order. Let’s not be disheartened and for those that are, remember to Pray.

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